FEELIN' GOOD.

Friday.

GUILTY

Been super busy with everything that's going on, school, work, gigs and social life (if there's anything left of it after these 4 months..) Tired. Have to go to work tomorrow, yay, but that's a night shift, so I get no sleep since on Friday-morning we have a visit to a hotel, some lecture there at 9 a.m. And I'm not a morning person. After school I head out to Kotka, where we have a gig. So second night, no sleep. Sunday, have to travel back to Tre, and work a night shift. After that is Monday and school again. SIGH¨

Found new shoes! The other ones that I bought recently broke down :( Crap.
Winter shoes for 2012. Too bad you cant see how high they are! They're awesome..


Now I have to check out some new songs we will be playing w/ Kristian Meurman this weekend. Gladly, there's also some songs I am not disgusted to play, like Danko Jones <3 But first, a nap.

MAYHEM

The amount of work just seems never ending.. I wish it was Christmas already. I'd have 5 days on my hands just to chill and be w/ my family. This week I have been not able to do much since I had two of my wisdom teeth removed on Monday morning. I look like a chipmunk atm and I have two meetings tomorrow, which I have to attend, can't skip them. Oh the pain. Same thing again next month, can't wait...

So I have 2 days to rehearse 62 songs for the weekend, from which 11 are completely new. I'm screwed. Normally that wouldn't be a problem at all, but with this amount of pain... Dunno. We'll see. I'm going to Oulu once again for the weekend, band rehearsals that is.

RAISED BY WOLVES

Here's a little treat; a sneak peek from the photo shoot we had last weekend! The tour's gonna be 22 gigs total and the theme is "Pedro's Airlines".. that's why we were dressed as flight attendants w/ a pin up -twist.


Teh singer, Heidi


Drummer Suvi and Satu, our keyboard-player

The rehearsals went well, got 23 new songs for the gigs!

Also my friend asked whether I was interested coming to play a few songs in a charity event next Saturday.. What can I say? No payment of course since it's for charity but free meal and drinks, and for a good cause.. of course I'm doing it, what friends are for. It's only a small event, only ab 200 people, but it's outside! November in Finland that is. This ought to be interesting..
Freakin' out a little over here. I never tend to get nervous when playing "normal" gigs, even if there's hundreds or thousands of people, but when I'm doing it on my own, alone...that's another story. I guess sometimes you just have to challenge yourself... ...I feel like throwing up.

Btw, the drive from Tampere to Oulu turned out to be a little more exciting than I expected it to be..

ALLIGATOR BLOOD

Can't wrap myself around the fact that these guys were playing a gig just few blocks from my apartment. ;_____; And I didn't make it. Costed 43€, a bit too much for a student who hadn't got her salary for the last two gigs she had.. Goddamn!! So good.. So near but so far away.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UWmNsHDdWFU&ob=av2n

THE WOLVES NEVER STAY AT BAY

Remember to listen to your instincts. Always. They're usually right.

REPENT REPENT THE END IS NIGH

I'm so pissed off right now. What is wrong with people?? Among the things I hate most is probably people, who don't even know you, and then they come up to you and start acting like they know everything about you. I'm Finnish, that means that if I don't smile all the time and jump around the walls with joy, that doesn't mean that there's something wrong with me. I have bumped into a couple of dudes living in the same building as me and every time they fuckin ask how I'm doing and I tell them I'm fine or things are looking up or that my life is fuckin absolutely, utterly perfect right now, they just shake their heads and you can see PITY in their eyes. Both of them tell me every time they don't believe me. WTF?!? I understand there might be some cultural differences but aagghh! Why would I need to apologize to some random dudes?? They also complain about me wearing a cap. A cap. If I am at home, got no plans and I go outside to drink my coffee on the porch, I should every time do my hair and wear makeup. I am so sick of this, just leave me be!! No matter what I say or do there's always the answer "No, you're not fine. And why are you wearing that cap again?" I know I should probably just ignore them, but easier said than done. The other one tried to drag me to his apartment one night and the other has made up his mind that I want to hang out with him. Thank god I'm moving out in a year... A year..

Had a blast on Friday! Went to grab a few beers with Anne and Tomi, and accidentally bumped into this guy called Jarkko I met after Sparzanza/Doom Unit-gig a few weeks back. He was the light effect guy for Doom Unit back then and I know for a fact that he does sound for a lot of bands, specially here in Tampere. (Dunno what the actual terms are in English, but anyways.) There I was, sitting with Jarkko at "Dog's Home", when Mikko the drummer steps in and greets us. And we both say hi at him. *A moment of confusion* "You guys already know each other?" He asks. And we're both like ??? Turns out that Jarkko is the guitarist Mikko had been talking about (for the band we discussed last spring)! I had no idea. Neither did Jarkko, who remembered that Mikko had been telling him about a female guitarist, but he just didn't put the pieces together. It was so funny! And Mikko had found a bass player who could be interested. We made a deal I would ask one of my friends about a rehearsal studio and we would continue from there. I bet it's gonna be sweet playing with them, something totally different from IIRIS..and the music also. Can't wait!

I have a job interview on Monday for Jack the Rooster! Wish me luck.

ANOTHER DAY IN PARADISE

This has been such a boring day.. Got up in the morning and did some Swedish presentation w/ Sanna and Riikka. Felt awful the whole time, so when we got the thing done, I grabbed some chinese food and headed back home. After I ate, I fell asleep w/ kitty. And slept the whole day, woke up 7:30 in the evening whaat. Feeling a bit bummed 'cause I didn't go to the gym, apparently, but I guess that was actually a good thing since I'm really sore from yesterday.. Started the group-assignment we're making tomorrow w/ Satu, Laura and Riikka. We agreed to gather at Satu's place and probably cook something while making the assignment. Which is a definitive upside, since I don't have any food at my place.. Glamorous, I know, but hey, that's the way students roll around here. Well, not exactly I'm going to the store tomorrow.

Feeling stressed ab the internship I ought to do.. Or internshipS, in plural. 600 hours, working, and most likely without getting paid for it. Gah, I should get that thing going, no replies yet to my work application. Maybe I'll just go and visit the place some day when the boss is around. Crap.

...

Had a little evening workout here and redecorated my flat. All because the kitty didn't seem to like the idea of her in her carriage thing. She's been all quiet and nice all these past few days, but oh boy did she run for it and started talking now! Nice, really nice. Definitely gave me a run for my money there, and a few battle scars.. But I succeeded, after a 20 minutes of hunting. Broke my heart to give her away and to depart like this. I really love cats, one of my friends even started calling me "the crazy cat lady" :D Would be cool to own one, but at this point of my life it wouldn't work out since I travel so much.

Gonna have some new songs w/ my band for the next gig we have in Oulu, Saturday 1.st of October. Total 5-7 new songs.. We go to Oulu the day before the gig and rehearse the next morning, a few hours before the gig that is. Crazy, I think, I would prefer we'd play together alot more than we do now, and with that amount of rehearsing together before the show... is always exciting. But it's worked out before and thank god everyone knows what they're doind, so it's cool.

That's why I would like to have another band besides IIRIS, since I don't get to play together as much as I would like to. Ever since we all moved far away from each other, it's been now what, over two years, I felt like dying. It sucks ass when u don't get to do the thing u love absolutely most in this world. Luckily Heidi's back from France so we get to have gigs now, but still. It isn't enough. Even though we'd have gigs every weekend it would still not be enough. I want to play different kind of music, I guess that's the problem. The party-music sure is fun, but I dunno.. Something's changed. Maybe it has something to do with the fact that practically everyone else in that group is talking about getting married, having kids, buying a house blablablaBLEH. U're all so young, what is wrong with you?! I try so hard not to think about it, and everyone keeps telling me it's all gonna work out, but I doubt it. I wonder whether will I ever be okay. I can't get this thing out of my head, this little voice that keeps saying.. there's got to be more than this. I am so frustrated. Something's missing and I can't get around it. I don't mean to sound desperate, but I can't lie it hasn't had an effect on me. I just feel like shouting out loud.


Love my gurls to bits, but I gotta say one thing that I've learned here: I am never ever going to join all-female-band again. :D


Taking a small trip down the memory lane. Me and Satu at RaaheFestivals this summer -11. Sun, beer, gig as the last act - that's what I'm talking about.


This one's from Midsummer Day -10. We were in Levi and had a huuuge apartment all to ourselves. This is one of the things I love most doing this: Everyone's getting ready, the sound system guy's making lame-ass-jokes, someone's arguing about the set list, everyone's having a drink.. The best.


Alright, 'till next time! Something more positive maybe.