PUSH IT REAL GOOD

Arrgghh I'm never EVER going to that "dance instructors" classes again!! I can't understand how is it that it's so freaking hard to count to four?!! And there I was, jumping around 'cause she was just all over the place w/ her counting, and I'm like, whoa, this goes to seven u say?? Sounds pretty basic to me but okay I guess we can do that.. WHAT now we're going to three?! aaagghhh!

But happy happy entry as I promised. I finally found a "fox tail" - thing, that I'd been looking for almost a year now! (Yeah great to have one now that everyone else has theirs, too.. but WE content still!) And a new shirt which was awesome, sophisticated and rockin' at the same time ;( Took a pic and you can also see a glimpse of my latest ink! (I want a new one pretty bad..)


It's the little things that u should be able to be happy about. I am atm whee :3 But not just ab the new things.

Been running around all day, got errands once again and now I'm pretty worn out. AND I ought to get packing - bought also a train ticket today. I'm leaving to Tornevalley tomorrow at noon. Gonna chill w/ my family, rehearse for the gig coming up next week, and I also have a hairdresser appointment. Which I'm scared of, I know she wants to cut my hair ;-; aaggh maybe I'll post a pic after that. But that probably depends on the outcome..

ANOTHER DAY IN PARADISE

This has been such a boring day.. Got up in the morning and did some Swedish presentation w/ Sanna and Riikka. Felt awful the whole time, so when we got the thing done, I grabbed some chinese food and headed back home. After I ate, I fell asleep w/ kitty. And slept the whole day, woke up 7:30 in the evening whaat. Feeling a bit bummed 'cause I didn't go to the gym, apparently, but I guess that was actually a good thing since I'm really sore from yesterday.. Started the group-assignment we're making tomorrow w/ Satu, Laura and Riikka. We agreed to gather at Satu's place and probably cook something while making the assignment. Which is a definitive upside, since I don't have any food at my place.. Glamorous, I know, but hey, that's the way students roll around here. Well, not exactly I'm going to the store tomorrow.

Feeling stressed ab the internship I ought to do.. Or internshipS, in plural. 600 hours, working, and most likely without getting paid for it. Gah, I should get that thing going, no replies yet to my work application. Maybe I'll just go and visit the place some day when the boss is around. Crap.

...

Had a little evening workout here and redecorated my flat. All because the kitty didn't seem to like the idea of her in her carriage thing. She's been all quiet and nice all these past few days, but oh boy did she run for it and started talking now! Nice, really nice. Definitely gave me a run for my money there, and a few battle scars.. But I succeeded, after a 20 minutes of hunting. Broke my heart to give her away and to depart like this. I really love cats, one of my friends even started calling me "the crazy cat lady" :D Would be cool to own one, but at this point of my life it wouldn't work out since I travel so much.

Gonna have some new songs w/ my band for the next gig we have in Oulu, Saturday 1.st of October. Total 5-7 new songs.. We go to Oulu the day before the gig and rehearse the next morning, a few hours before the gig that is. Crazy, I think, I would prefer we'd play together alot more than we do now, and with that amount of rehearsing together before the show... is always exciting. But it's worked out before and thank god everyone knows what they're doind, so it's cool.

That's why I would like to have another band besides IIRIS, since I don't get to play together as much as I would like to. Ever since we all moved far away from each other, it's been now what, over two years, I felt like dying. It sucks ass when u don't get to do the thing u love absolutely most in this world. Luckily Heidi's back from France so we get to have gigs now, but still. It isn't enough. Even though we'd have gigs every weekend it would still not be enough. I want to play different kind of music, I guess that's the problem. The party-music sure is fun, but I dunno.. Something's changed. Maybe it has something to do with the fact that practically everyone else in that group is talking about getting married, having kids, buying a house blablablaBLEH. U're all so young, what is wrong with you?! I try so hard not to think about it, and everyone keeps telling me it's all gonna work out, but I doubt it. I wonder whether will I ever be okay. I can't get this thing out of my head, this little voice that keeps saying.. there's got to be more than this. I am so frustrated. Something's missing and I can't get around it. I don't mean to sound desperate, but I can't lie it hasn't had an effect on me. I just feel like shouting out loud.


Love my gurls to bits, but I gotta say one thing that I've learned here: I am never ever going to join all-female-band again. :D


Taking a small trip down the memory lane. Me and Satu at RaaheFestivals this summer -11. Sun, beer, gig as the last act - that's what I'm talking about.


This one's from Midsummer Day -10. We were in Levi and had a huuuge apartment all to ourselves. This is one of the things I love most doing this: Everyone's getting ready, the sound system guy's making lame-ass-jokes, someone's arguing about the set list, everyone's having a drink.. The best.


Alright, 'till next time! Something more positive maybe.

YOUR SUCCESS DOES NOT DEPEND ON THE FAILURE OF OTHERS

...Where is my perfect supernatural wallpaper?? Google, u re full of crap. I mean, they're all really nice and stuff but they look stupid on my way-too-wide-screen. And I mean, what is up with the quality man?? Sometimes I wonder whether people are color-blind, photoshopping away these things. Dude, some can't even spell..

Just got back from the gym.. Can totally tell that I did nothing during the summer *feeling like a noodle* I should probably go and eat something. I should also do some studying and write a few essays or something.. NAH

I can't believe it's Sunday already.. That means I have to give up kitty over there tomorrow to her original parents. She's been here, on foster care since Wednesday, meanwhile mum and dad got married and baptized the new bundle of joy (1 month old), which was nice. I'm still gonna miss that hairy thing.

Behold the excitement and the adrenaline-kick in this entry!

U SHOOK ME ALL NIGHT LONG

Guess what I have been up to this weekend? This.



Also went to the gym a few times, and had a drink and ate some sushi w/ friends, but mostly this. (Missin' my sis..)





Finished season 5 and had to go and watch a few crappy-quality-season-6-episodes on the internet but then gave up, for my good intentions were to hit the sack..That's now, 3,5 hours ago.

Thank god I'm getting the next season from Mikko some day soon.



Yes, what an energetic weekend. Not bad. How come everything suddenly seems so..ordinary, plain, boring?

HALLELUJAH

Yeah, it has been quite a while since I last updated something, it's about time I guess.. Summer went by so rapidly it felt like a blink of an eye. Just selling booze - work work work. Got the time to swim only two times, although that's a hellofalot more than I can say for the past few years :D Since I bought a new bikini before went to Lithuania I was able to get half-naked in public. Yay. Otherwise these past few moths have not been kind to me. Not at all. Brutal, one could say. But that's another story and doesn't belong to the internet.

Spent the summer in Tornevalley and got back to Tampere about a week ago. Haven't been at home for just a couple of nights, I mean evenings. Been out w/ friends and looking for a new job.. *Sigh* Another one ends, another one must begin.

Ordered a new bag and a wallet, Guess Alexis Tote -awesomeness! I have never bought any accessories as expensive as those were! But still pretty cheap compared to if I had bought them from a "proper" store here, only 120€! :3 Love.


I gotta say, I LOVE Tampere. "I love this city, it's so good to be back in Finlands LA. Doing what I do best." Not really doing what I do best, just some studying and practicing for the acoustic gig I have coming up in October. Solo, that is. I'm literally terrified, petrified and even the pure thought scares the hell outta me. First gig ever I have all by myself to perform. Alone. Thank god it's only a couple of songs.. This is my set list:

Anna Puu - C´est la vie
Apocalyptica - Not Strong Enough
Happoradio - Puhu äänellä jonka kuulen
Kate Voegele - Hallelujah

(I know the hallelujah song is not originally hers, I just love the version she made. Actually I don't know whose it is.. Anyways, I've always loved that song and now I finally got a good reason to learn it. AND if it's good enough for Bon Jovi, it's good enough for me. Period.)

I've also been playing Skid Row's Monkey Business, 'cause we might get together with some friends at a jam session @ Jack The Rooster, 18.9, and play it. Well see how that turns out, quite frankly I'm terrified of that too :D Though I know it will be fun.

So here I was, sippin' my red wine and playing Monkey Business (with an amplifier and all), when there was a knock on the door. My neighbour, apparently from the next door, came all like "Are you the one playing guitar over here???" and I'm like, "yeaahh.. Am I being too loud..?" (My first thought. Am I interrupting everyone's peace?? Has he come to tell me to tone it down??). And what he said next, got me off guard. "Oh that's fine, no problem dude! I've been listening u play so many times, u're really good!" .... "What? Really??" "Sure! Good job! It's nice to hear someone play who can actually do it. I play guitar myself." And I just stood there and smiled, awestruck. Then he went, and I felt happy.